The significance of beauty is to realize it’s potential within yourself. The significance to love is to remind yourself daily as to what you’d like in return meaning, the respect that’s given towards one another, should be something that’s understandable, and a common ground, certain compromises that could also be compromised. The significance of life is to remain humbled and fortunate to have all that you have, and appreciate the endless opportunities that you obtain to love yourself, and others so deeply. The significance of forgiving is that you’ll never have to forget, you gain lessons everyday from every person you come across, and you grow the power to motivate yourself to become the better version of you, when you’re faced with dilemmas in life, big or small. The significance of taking kindness into consideration with any of the endeavors you run into with life, as well as people. The significance of silence when it’s your only solitude to redeem and feel yourself until every bit of stress is out of your way, even if it’s not an infinite moment. The significance to remind yourself that it’s better to love, than to fight. Last but not least, the significance to keep your mind balanced and to admit when your pride and ego get a hold of you. Coming to terms with someone else’s perspective is a great way to understand their point of view, instead of remaining narrow minded, and bitter. Understanding is hard, trying to push yourself out of your own comfort zone to understand is even harder. Hypethetically speaking, imagine if a lotus flower grew from dirt instead of shallow murky water, or mud, it would probably grow to bloom all at once as opposed to what it originally does, which is blooming pedal by pedal. It wouldn’t have such beauty to it, if it adjusted to dirt instead of mud and murky waters. Now conceptualize if an individual decided to grow like a lotus (hypothetically) there would be a better understanding between most individuals today. The significance of beauty is to realize it’s potential within yourself .
Her legs had a sort of dramatic touch around her knees, as if there’s too much muscle built around it. But I love it. It’s like she’s strong in her own way, with a certain specific body part of hers. Hypothetically I would’ve been all over her by this time, but it’s something about her that makes her different from the rest. She’s gold to me, her thick hair makes it difficult to not touch. It’s like once my hand is in there, I suddenly gain an addiction to her thrusting in what seems to be the softest grass. I knew she wanted me to touch her, but the way she inhales the blunt with each pull, she makes love to my mind. Her imagination runs wild, I mean, I could’ve poured all of the persuasions that I’ve used before, along with newly developed speeches filled with empty promises. But not her; not this one. She was too pure, feels things too deeply, it’s like she’s the sudden remedy to my numb being. In every way I can possibly think of.
“You’ve read all of those books huh? You must find the words on the pages as an outlet to interest your mind.” Speaking softly with angelic voice, I knew she would be expecting a well thought response.
“Yes, in fact if you’d like, you can borrow them and just bring them back when you’re done.”
“What makes you think I want to see you again?”
“Well, not really but I would like to see you a few more times. But if you’re not down with that, then that’s cool.”
“Well, guess I won’t be boring that book then.” She put forth a bit of a sarcastic tone to her voice that I know I cannot resist.
I couldn’t help but let out a laugh. She’s stubborn. I like it.
“You don’t have to take it like that, I’m joking with you, I want to see you again. Is that better?”
“It was good either way captain obvious, I knew you wanted to see me, you’ve been staring at me for a good 20 minutes. You want some more? There’s only a few pulls left.”
She passed me the joint and caressed my hand giving me goosebumps with her fingernails lightly scratching my hand. I finished it, and began to address her physically. Right before I went to take my pants off she says: ” I don’t mean to sound sleazy but tease me. I don’t want it if its that easy.”
I laughed and smiled at her wonderous dark brown eyes. I never thought a woman like her would ever exist in my life.
“That’s fine, shall I proceed to use my voice as a stimulation? I’m great at weird conversations and even better while using my fingers”
She let out to what seemed to me, a childlike laugh, filled with excitement and pleasure all mixed into one. I love this woman.
“Well let’s get this show on the road shall we?”
Faye Simone, she’s my gem.
My soul rips apart heavy tears of hatred flowing through my eyes
Just the sight alone makes me wanna despise
Slightly hanging on to hope that I know I shouldn’t dare touch
Anger ripped my chest open preparing it for a punch
Having resentment for them is not a pleasant thing to face
Seeing the shadow of an image brings me disgrace
The thought alone keeps me shut
So when I find myself over heating all I can bring to my lips is “but”
But nothing, no worries, things will get figured out
My heart’s growing strong with wisdom that I don’t know about
Well, I know it, but I cannot see it
Trying to understand how one can tolerate so much bullshit
I’m not a person that can be patient for very long,
It gets tiring listening to that same “song”
I’m better than what I’ve been before
Try looking at another perspective trying to open a door
It’s harder than it looks, believe me you
Trying to be happy when it isn’t true
I’d be happy if things went how they were wished
So it’s just left in the water, like an unwashed dish.
Tea with lemon and honey should help out
Maybe with a little whiskey, and I won’t shout
Silence is my tranquility when there’s a raging fire
Not satisfied when I don’t see the evident desire.
Showing remorse can bring you to your knees, but I’d rather that be the case than to not have endearment for you. I’ve went completely numb due to the lack of love and brutality shown onto me; but you, oh you.
You bring me body trembles that keep me warm, instead of cold.
You’re everything I could’ve asked for and yet, I’ve come to terms that we both provide.
Come, the jazz sessions call your name along with mine
Stroke my strings, like the bass you call yours
Push your breaths on me and press my buttons like the trumpet you sing to.
Empower me, as I you.
Drink from me, as I you.
I promise, my lively liquids will keep you satisfied until you’re ready for more.
Thank you my love,
Someone once told me, in life, it’s best to just leave the negative thoughts behind and keep on trucking because there’s worse things that you’ll have to deal with. Subconsciously I’ve let negative thoughts run through my head and body, which reflected how I treated people, but I’ve tried so hard to become better, which I have; slightly.
Starting school soon, I’ve began to contemplate as to why I’m deciding to start a new chapter all over again. With veterinarian technician, being my number one goal, I’ve noticed that it was a passion I wanted to pursue, but not at the moment. I’ve wanted, and still do, to take care of animals completely; but somewhere in that mix, I’ve noticed that I come first. Me. As mean and selfish as that sounds, I’ve brought it to my own mental attention, that I’m young, and I won’t be getting any younger. If I don’t take care of what I need to accomplish then I won’t achieve any of the goals I want to acquire, then I won’t attain the happiness I want in the near future.
Which brings me to music, (my first choice), oh the flawless admiration I have for that word itself let alone the pure instruments that make it, what it really is. Nothing could ever bring me to loathe music, for its all I think about, for example, when I leave to a restaurant or even waiting on line at a store, I have to touch something and make up a beat, which progresses on to become a potential song in my head, which pushes me closer to successfully knocking down yet, another obstacle.
You see, I think about money a lot, but I also think about helping animals more than people. Because I’ve always despised individuals who don’t really care about the planet. They irk me in full honesty. Then there comes children, because they’re our future of course. Counseling came to mind. But then again, how can I help others if I cannot assist myself with my best interests to help those in need?
It all came back down to square one, which has taught me a very valuable lesson over and over again.
Your first choice? Let that be your decision.
I’d like to think of it as a juxtaposition to a drunk person.
Your first choice is something you know will make you happy, (not in many cases but so far in mine), and that second choice is something that you think will be better than your first choice but won’t really make you as happy as your first choice. Now let’s view the drunken individuals, when sober, they don’t spill out their feelings/thoughts/concerns as much as they would when they’re drunk. Because their second choice is to not say anything about what they really feel like saying. Although they know that if they were to bring up their honesty, as blunt as it may seem and or be, they’ll get ridiculed or misjudged for speaking up.
Now that, that’s out of the way, I’m proud to say that I believe I’m taking the necessary steps in my life for my future because it’s, well, it’s not the “right” thing to do, but it’s the smart thing to do. Who wants to be held up in a square town that is a dead end and not move forward ? My city, Elizabeth, New Jersey, is my comfort zone, but it isn’t my “home” for I know I love the parks, streets, and festivals as well as the locals I may recognize, but deep down within me, I know it’s not somewhere I see myself living for the rest of my life.
There are invisible walls that have been put up for those that seek the average things in life, as for me? Those walls have been torn down since the age of 15, furthermore, I believe it’s time I take a few steps over those broken down walls and feel the world out for myself and my future relationships and endeavors, for nothing, and, no one will be able to stop me.
Felisha Perez .
Love me down
Finish your plate
Don’t give me a frown
Come here to heavens gate
For the now
My waterfalls will make you weak
Certain strokes give me “WOW”
Come and let me make you tweak
While I watch you quiver after my love is given
I bask in my satisfaction of your surrender
This was wholeheartedly driven
My mentality and vibes are benders
I bend broken hearts and build them anew
Giving you my liquids from my fountain
Come sit next to me and enjoy the view
The view from skies to oceans to the top of a mountain
With you inside of me, I see your colors spring about
I grab your heart from inside of your body, to give it a kiss, just to put it back
Look me in my eyes so I can turn you out
I keep my clothes on to keep your imagination in tack
We can never lose ourselves in a drought
Our bodies must be flowing rivers of life
Come taste it
Fondle me like you would a fife
Put your fingers in the holes, filling them up, with no exit
And never leave
Compared to most, I’m pretty clever
Come to me, and receive
This gift I give you, that takes you to a different element
I promise I’ll be a good girl
I promise I’ll repent
Make me unfurl
I’ll make you wild
Happy, and intrigued with this game we play
Your smile will be bigger than a child’s
So speed up, I don’t have all day.
Meet me here then over there,
I’ll lick your spots
Just tell me where
Connecting them like stars that connect dots.
Come lay in between my legs,
You’re not entering, just simply sharing an intimate position
Talk to me like a puppy that begs
Let me be your physician
I’ll put you back into place
I can make you remember
Leaving long strokes of my tongue on your face
Then on your back that’s hotter than ember
But I’ll cool off, and so will you.
Come love me down,
Smiles cut deep
Innocent like the newborn sheep
Lions are not allowed to fall in love
Yet your silence grips me softer than a dove’s
They can never change
Well there’s possibility
But then there’s rearrange
I mean I meant
Meant to keep your heart safe
I’ll hold you in my armored arms my dearest waif
I’ll give you shelter something you’ll need
For it is not water you drink, but my lfe’s liquid I’ve sacrificed for you, so I bleed
I’m not ashamed, to show how I feel
Showing you a heaven is ideal
My soul become your wings, for they’ll give you strength to fly
For my love is never just simple, it’s conceived to multiply
I give you life, through me, take my hand allow me to lead the way
Things are subjective be that as it may
Sleep on my chest, allow my beating compassion to be your ticking clock
Perfecting your hearing when my lover knocks
Knocks on the doors to your heart
Follow me to clear waters of the dock so you may witness the reflection that’ll counterpart
Counterpart your heart, soul, mind and emotions
That’ll bring out my countless devotions
For your safety, and your piece of mind;
I promise for my sake and yours, that I’ll never leave you behind.
It’ll make you go insane
Something in the brain
Makes you think too much
It’s like a punch
In the gut, then to the face
Suddenly I feel a need to pace
Back and forth just like these thoughts
It’s a disease that needs to be fought
Better off easier said than done
But in the end, the thoughts have won
Knowing what’s said to the cardinal, is never fully true
Leaving space for the spinning room’s doubts towards you .
I concur to certain phrases
But this heart of mine is built like a bunch of broken vases
It’s not like I try to be better than I was yesterday because I do
But the only thing that’s holding me back is you .
Your thoughts, mind, soul, and feelings Suddenly erupt
It’s like a conversation that shouldn’t be interrupt…Ed
Putting yourself in my shoes will show you how I think
In the final chapter I am my own shrink
I hold myself at night
Not letting go, gripping tight
Rock back and forth just to sleep
While others count numerous things, I’d count you before I’d count sheep
It’s deep, this connection I have within my brain
So go ahead and feed me that bullshit saying “you don’t feel the same”
Believing lies are easy
Believing the truth makes my breathless heart wheezy
Laying solo allowing the empty breeze to come in
While suddenly realizing my patience is running thin
My heart beats rapidly in the middle of my slumber
While my mind comes to a rumble of paranoid thunder
Toes wiggle while fingers clutch to these twin sheets
Legs suddenly crossed feeling a panic forcing me to fleet
Sure the right words are spoken, but they can never fool this third eye
Seeing your front gives me reason to just walk on by
By your face, your smile, and your scent
Why do I feel a sudden need to repent ?
I allow your vibe to flow deep through and within me
Chains shackled on my soul that yearns to be free
Free with you, on the surface of the moon
Forcing me to deal with the reality too soon.
You’re gone. And never will be back
Reach me soon so I can read Saturn’s table zodiac
Trying to reach to the other side
Knowing that it’s not where I can abide
I’m trying my hardest to keep you close to me
Not recognizing that you’re the frenemy
Breaking my trust and heart piece by piece
Waiting for these tears to open their show of sweet release .
Have you ever felt like the world could be a crashing, complete demolishing, mess, but yet in that moment, you seem to notice how grateful you are. Those days are the ones where you have to grasp onto reality and see how fortunate you really are. People complain about the simplicity of life, without even realizing first and foremost, YOU’RE BREATHING !!!!!!!
You could’ve been dead, paralyzed, deaf, blind, injured, in a life changing disaster. But no, you’re alive. Take time to thank the universe for everything that you have, and what you don’t have. I know that second part sounds funny, but honestly, ponder on that; you possess what you need, most of the time it’s not the things you want, which I’m more than sure it can be frustrating, but if you’re in the middle of getting yourself together you can’t focus on what you’d like and want, you’ve got to stay hungry for what you need in life to remain alive, and most importantly humbled. Furthermore you have to show thanks, because everything you obtain, can be taken from you like a rug being pulled from under you.
One beautiful day, someone will be rude to you, someone will hurt your feelings, and at a certain point and time, someone will break your heart, so it is your JOB as a human being, to remain calm and take advantage of the glory which, if you haven’t noticed, is all around you.
Let’s use it as an analogy.
The trees get rained on by the sky so many times a day, a week, a month, even more during a year, and yet, they don’t decide to break away from their roots firmly planted in the ground, instead, they grow, so beautifully. Doesn’t that make you want to cry ? They keep their head(branches) up and continue to look at the bigger purpose/ picture.
Growth will make you better, every single day, you just have to push yourself to that very point.
So when you’re having a great day, noticing how blessed you are, in that moment, give thanks, to the
- And to yourself
I say yourself because, you can give up at any given moment. You really can, but if you know that you want more out of life, and you yearn to be content with life as well as yourself, you continue to push, and let me tell you something, it’s HARD ! So hard, that you want to cry or get so aggravated that you want to storm out and walk off of the edge of the world, but think about it………
the same energy you put into quitting is the same energy you should apply to winning and happiness. Because you deserve that . You deserve the world. If you work for it.
So if you’re happy today, stay like that 💚.
The long strokes of your index and middle finger send chills down my spine, after it’s all done, conversation is something I become addicted to. Your mouth filled with so much honey, while my mind pursuades me to take a lick to share your taste. There’s nothing better than this. Your imperfections speak so sensually to me, making it extremely difficult for me to pin point as to how they’re not good enough for you.
I laid here expecting so little, instead I’ve received so much more. This position here is where I’d like to stay for the rest of the night. Your brown eyes giving me a reflection of my own. There’s nothing that I could desire any more than this. I appreciate your company, in fact I’ve yearned for it for far too long.
But answer me this, are you used to the caresses I’ve been handing you ? Does it feel like home ? Will you be able to see my woman like chest as your safe haven when you’ve had a bad day? Are you comfortable enough to lay on it and tell me your hopes and dreams ? How can I make you feel safe ?
My body becomes your office of therapy, for all I know you’ve accepted others. The only difference is they’ve looked for security through you, while I offer you my own secure essence of safety through my arms and my soul.
I see your chest as something to lay my hand on. The heartbeat through your ribs have given me such a deep sense of withdrawal. Withdrawal of love and peace. I’ve longed to bring tranquility to you, but only if you let me .