The worlds way of showing us how simplicity is really the cure to a multitude of mislead souls, we’ve been stuck in the one track minded mental, brought to think that whatever anyone else is doing, we must do better, and boast about it through a façade of humbled behavior.. that’s not the wave… sad to say that we all get stuck in it at some point in time, it’s up to you whether you stay stuck in a circled drain mentality, there’s ups and downs to every situation; for we might not know why and how, we all get frustrated and perplexed. Yet in those moments most of us cling to the, what we’d like to call, “comfort”, of our emotions, and steering away from positive logic thought. Bringing yourself to terms, with yourself, being kind to yourself, things will occur that you’d never imagine, contentment will be in your favor. Keeping that faith, and discipline, is the hardest part; so it can and will be done, if pursued.
Someone once told me, in life, it’s best to just leave the negative thoughts behind and keep on trucking because there’s worse things that you’ll have to deal with. Subconsciously I’ve let negative thoughts run through my head and body, which reflected how I treated people, but I’ve tried so hard to become better, which I have; slightly.
Starting school soon, I’ve began to contemplate as to why I’m deciding to start a new chapter all over again. With veterinarian technician, being my number one goal, I’ve noticed that it was a passion I wanted to pursue, but not at the moment. I’ve wanted, and still do, to take care of animals completely; but somewhere in that mix, I’ve noticed that I come first. Me. As mean and selfish as that sounds, I’ve brought it to my own mental attention, that I’m young, and I won’t be getting any younger. If I don’t take care of what I need to accomplish then I won’t achieve any of the goals I want to acquire, then I won’t attain the happiness I want in the near future.
Which brings me to music, (my first choice), oh the flawless admiration I have for that word itself let alone the pure instruments that make it, what it really is. Nothing could ever bring me to loathe music, for its all I think about, for example, when I leave to a restaurant or even waiting on line at a store, I have to touch something and make up a beat, which progresses on to become a potential song in my head, which pushes me closer to successfully knocking down yet, another obstacle.
You see, I think about money a lot, but I also think about helping animals more than people. Because I’ve always despised individuals who don’t really care about the planet. They irk me in full honesty. Then there comes children, because they’re our future of course. Counseling came to mind. But then again, how can I help others if I cannot assist myself with my best interests to help those in need?
It all came back down to square one, which has taught me a very valuable lesson over and over again.
Your first choice? Let that be your decision.
I’d like to think of it as a juxtaposition to a drunk person.
Your first choice is something you know will make you happy, (not in many cases but so far in mine), and that second choice is something that you think will be better than your first choice but won’t really make you as happy as your first choice. Now let’s view the drunken individuals, when sober, they don’t spill out their feelings/thoughts/concerns as much as they would when they’re drunk. Because their second choice is to not say anything about what they really feel like saying. Although they know that if they were to bring up their honesty, as blunt as it may seem and or be, they’ll get ridiculed or misjudged for speaking up.
Now that, that’s out of the way, I’m proud to say that I believe I’m taking the necessary steps in my life for my future because it’s, well, it’s not the “right” thing to do, but it’s the smart thing to do. Who wants to be held up in a square town that is a dead end and not move forward ? My city, Elizabeth, New Jersey, is my comfort zone, but it isn’t my “home” for I know I love the parks, streets, and festivals as well as the locals I may recognize, but deep down within me, I know it’s not somewhere I see myself living for the rest of my life.
There are invisible walls that have been put up for those that seek the average things in life, as for me? Those walls have been torn down since the age of 15, furthermore, I believe it’s time I take a few steps over those broken down walls and feel the world out for myself and my future relationships and endeavors, for nothing, and, no one will be able to stop me.
Felisha Perez .
Love me down
Finish your plate
Don’t give me a frown
Come here to heavens gate
For the now
My waterfalls will make you weak
Certain strokes give me “WOW”
Come and let me make you tweak
While I watch you quiver after my love is given
I bask in my satisfaction of your surrender
This was wholeheartedly driven
My mentality and vibes are benders
I bend broken hearts and build them anew
Giving you my liquids from my fountain
Come sit next to me and enjoy the view
The view from skies to oceans to the top of a mountain
With you inside of me, I see your colors spring about
I grab your heart from inside of your body, to give it a kiss, just to put it back
Look me in my eyes so I can turn you out
I keep my clothes on to keep your imagination in tack
We can never lose ourselves in a drought
Our bodies must be flowing rivers of life
Come taste it
Fondle me like you would a fife
Put your fingers in the holes, filling them up, with no exit
And never leave
Compared to most, I’m pretty clever
Come to me, and receive
This gift I give you, that takes you to a different element
I promise I’ll be a good girl
I promise I’ll repent
Make me unfurl
I’ll make you wild
Happy, and intrigued with this game we play
Your smile will be bigger than a child’s
So speed up, I don’t have all day.
Meet me here then over there,
I’ll lick your spots
Just tell me where
Connecting them like stars that connect dots.
Come lay in between my legs,
You’re not entering, just simply sharing an intimate position
Talk to me like a puppy that begs
Let me be your physician
I’ll put you back into place
I can make you remember
Leaving long strokes of my tongue on your face
Then on your back that’s hotter than ember
But I’ll cool off, and so will you.
Come love me down,
Blinded by luscious words
A wish will stay thrown up in the air while getting slapped by the turd
Nothing is as pleasant as a beautiful night
Being able to trust your own might
Meaningless conversations bring me to a pause
Like teachers over analyzing a specific clause
Wishing you were a flower in my hand that blooms
Your lips and fingers feel like other women have been in your presence making me quiver needing to scour
Depressing laughs bring me to a realization
Your posionous licks cut my circulation
“Loves gonna get you killed but pride is gonna be the death of you and you and you and me and you and you and you and me and you and you and me”
Seeing such a scowl gives me reason to exit to sea
Bleeding for you, attaining knowledge of the ice in your veins
Keeps growing in my pains
Fingernails scraping your skin from love making that was too rough
While you fill me up with your slough
I’ll put happiness inside of you, by will or force
Putting you in constant jubilee without remorse
The three words that can make or break you
I love you, I HATE YOU !
Those could be the last words you spoke
My heart still obtains the holes which you have poke-d
Simple laughs and complex mind readings
That shall result in my beheadings
Of mind and soul
My Body could never be an option in this role
For it’s too strong to let you hold it prisoner
Although I’ve often prayed for a conditioner
For your aura
Because it’s harder than coral
Though I’ve cried
I’ve seen days better than this
I’m more than grateful for this ignorant bliss
For you think I’m not enlightened
But I am have knowledge of a plethora of things that can keep you frightened
Don’t push what you don’t know
Due to the soap opera also known as your show
I’ll be “blind”
Smiles cut deep
Innocent like the newborn sheep
Lions are not allowed to fall in love
Yet your silence grips me softer than a dove’s
They can never change
Well there’s possibility
But then there’s rearrange
I mean I meant
Meant to keep your heart safe
I’ll hold you in my armored arms my dearest waif
I’ll give you shelter something you’ll need
For it is not water you drink, but my lfe’s liquid I’ve sacrificed for you, so I bleed
I’m not ashamed, to show how I feel
Showing you a heaven is ideal
My soul become your wings, for they’ll give you strength to fly
For my love is never just simple, it’s conceived to multiply
I give you life, through me, take my hand allow me to lead the way
Things are subjective be that as it may
Sleep on my chest, allow my beating compassion to be your ticking clock
Perfecting your hearing when my lover knocks
Knocks on the doors to your heart
Follow me to clear waters of the dock so you may witness the reflection that’ll counterpart
Counterpart your heart, soul, mind and emotions
That’ll bring out my countless devotions
For your safety, and your piece of mind;
I promise for my sake and yours, that I’ll never leave you behind.