A gift to myself

It hurts worse the longer it’s been Sorrow is quicksand I feel that I’m sinking but I just don’t care to save myself  The same thing that made me feel so alive is now killing me slow depression, loneliness  Suffocation With Love Until Eternity XO Advertisements

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Dead Goldfish

What I’m watching/watched: Photography basics, Suits season 1, The Lobster, Vice abduction BDSM, etc. What makes a show “good?”                                         I. Theres this feeling of freedom that comes with “going out” at the end of the […]

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Neon Surprises 

What I expanded on today: different kinds of cryptocurrencies, ICOs, decentralization, art auctions, burn your bra, conversations you weren’t invited to, adult onesies, cognitive dissonance, indie movies, International (Seoul) Fashion, I’m an okay writer, John Malone candles, everything always has room for improvement, FOMO(fear of missing out) anxiety  There’s something soothing about Sundays At the […]

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F You

Sometimes I feel I’m living life sedated, lazy, and lost. I’m not sure what I even like anymore. Not much excites me other than what I’m capable of becoming later in life if I keep working now. Love won’t wait. But maybe it wasn’t love at all. I can feel myself becoming better and burning […]

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Real Men Hit Women

(In retrospect, this was my first “clickbait” headline and I didn’t even realize it, semi-rant) (Written: feb 3,2015) (Today: march 24,2017) If you were not born a man, DO NOT have a concrete definition on what being a man is, it’s that simple. You’re not a “real man” falls under many poverty bitch inspired mantras […]

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I did not ask ….

NOVEMBER 20, 2014  (Today: 2/26/2017) There are numerous things that make me angry. (1.People who block primary means of entering/exiting a facility with blatant disregard for anyone else)(2.People who ask (stupid)questions they either know the answer to or could have been solved with light research using minimal effort)(3.Incessant complainers) The list really does go on […]

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Hedonistic Hymns of the Hood

As much love as I have for you unconditionally, why do you remind me everyday how much I should hate you,  You owe me, dont try to do better than me, don’t do better than me, I’m not going to be happy for you, I promise, don’t leave me here, lonely, you promise?  More fraudulent […]

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The Ghosts of New York City

I remember the first time I finally managed to fall in love, it was with myself, then this idea, then you. Twisted love stories told by wilted magnolias down by the bodega on the corner. Your house on the hill is your top floor apartment, no one can see you cry up there, and if […]

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[Mirrors]

No time for clothes in the house,  or anymore monday mornings in my life,  Always alive at so dead an hour Crypt walking I’ve got the blues, My eyes swell, the tears turn to blood,  Again I realize I’m just a jester looking for a king’s love These are my primary problems  In a world […]

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American Travel Café

It’s not narita, not yet The days fade and the memories stay the weeks grow longer, love stronger, stretching farther I pray ill-will never find sanctuary in our unordinary accordance  I love the feeling like I shouldn’t, And when I looked up I could see that my life had become so crowded and I was […]

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