A gift to myself

It hurts worse the longer it’s been Sorrow is quicksand I feel that I’m sinking but I just don’t care to save myself  The same thing that made me feel so alive is now killing me slow depression, loneliness  Suffocation With Love Until Eternity XO Advertisements

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Dead Goldfish

What I’m watching/watched: Photography basics, Suits season 1, The Lobster, Vice abduction BDSM, etc. What makes a show “good?”                                         I. Theres this feeling of freedom that comes with “going out” at the end of the […]

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Neon Surprises 

What I expanded on today: different kinds of cryptocurrencies, ICOs, decentralization, art auctions, burn your bra, conversations you weren’t invited to, adult onesies, cognitive dissonance, indie movies, International (Seoul) Fashion, I’m an okay writer, John Malone candles, everything always has room for improvement, FOMO(fear of missing out) anxiety  There’s something soothing about Sundays At the […]

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F You

Sometimes I feel I’m living life sedated, lazy, and lost. I’m not sure what I even like anymore. Not much excites me other than what I’m capable of becoming later in life if I keep working now. Love won’t wait. But maybe it wasn’t love at all. I can feel myself becoming better and burning […]

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You get back what you put out 

The world is ending ?  Possibly…  but not as of yet.  Humanity may never know; But I’m pretty sure you’re familiarized with the saying  “Take pride in what you have.” Or “take care of what you’ve got.”  Think about a toy, or a child.  Toys can break any time, any moment, ruining a child’s entertainment, […]

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The Room

Photo: (Street Walkers – Aaron Johnson) Anxiety and depression wrapped neatly in the corner creeping closer I might die in this room  Or you might lead the way out  Either way I’m here and you are too Before I panicked because things changed, And currently worry because I don’t know if they’ll ever go back […]

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Summer sunsets at 7:45pm

Burn in hell An end to your human experience is inevitable, but how you go and where you go is still up for debate. Does pain and pleasure really get triggered by the same censors? I’m not trying to raise hell like some cenobite but why does each extreme feel so extraordinary on opposing ends […]

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